Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi all,
It's over a year now since I suffered a major burnout leading to long term sick, and since I've returned to work I've been taking care of myself by not travelling and really carefully managing my sensory environment & keeping away from hubbub (lots of conversations etc.). My self care has worked really well, and I've feel that I've discovered "normal, healthy" levels of stress for the first time in my working life (healthy levels of stress for *me*, at least).
Now that I'm looking like I've recovered from burnout and I'm starting performing at 95% again, I can feel myself coming under pressure to start attending meetings in person again and travelling again. Before my burnout I was flying into Europe alone maybe every month and just feeling important rather than stressed. Now I'm very wary about returning to what everyone else will see as normal.
I don't know what I'm asking others here for - maybe just sympathy & to tell me that yes, I need to look after myself and not put myself under pressure.
By the way, one of the things I'm *really* mindful of is giving an inch and being expected to do a mile.............
The problem with us is we feel compelled to do the right thing. NTs don't seem to have this so slacking off comes naturally.
We over-drive ourselves while achieving perfection.
That’s interesting that you see doing the right thing as a problem, whereas I see it as a virtue - if that’s the right word. Basically I see it as a good thing. I wouldn’t want to do the wrong thing.
Plastic said:We over-drive ourselves while achieving perfection.
This pretty much sums up every working day for me - I end up making myself bad through sheer grit of trying to get everything perfect and sacrificing everything at all costs (including my health and well-being). I still haven't figured out how not to do this.
Ah yes but, in their defence, I notice in terms of policy thst when good people fail to prevent bad policy decisions, the NT tendency to do as little as possible whilst grabbing hold of very small parts of the nature of the animal actually does a lot to prevent the awful consequences that speedy and effecient implementation of bad policy would have led to :D Eventually the errant gov will observe the chaos and rethink...