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I think i'm have a small relapse. I self harmed last night and haven't done for 3 or 4 months. But this time i did it where no one could see.

It's not just that. I feel stressed out all the time. I keep getting migraines, and can't cope with myself or my pets. Luckily Dad is helping me with pets so they are fine but i am struggling to be motivated to clean myself, get up, go to bed, go out, do anything really even eating.

I'm getting really affected by things. One of my bunnies was put to sleep last week and it's really getting to me. Noises are killing me inside. Even small chattering but especially those stupid bikes and shouting.

At my support group yesterday a few people were having a discussion about what benefits they get and what support. They sit there saying they have no support then talk about psychiatrists. More than i've ever had.

I suppose these all seem trivial things to other people but to me i feel like i am going crazy and fading away from the person i was.

Generally struggling. :(

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  • AnneMargaret said:

    Yes i'm 24. I live with my parents. I've told Mum about harming again. I see my GP Thursday. Tomorrow i have a support group that MIND run so i could talk to staff there if i felt able to although it's actually a social group.

    Yes i could try and take time out but not sure how to do that?

    Last year i lost 6 people close to me and in the last 12 years i've averaged losing one to two a year. It's tough.

    What's an autism team? I am waiting to see social worker to see if i can get a budget to use for finding support networks or something.

    Thank you for replying both of you.

    your welcome, thats what we are all here for isn't it :-)

    It's no wonder you feel this way if you have lost so many people close you to in a short time like that

    You really need to tell the gp and support staff how you feel and how it's affecting you, and a grief counsellor might be of help as you are going through that just now

    When you say you don't know how to take time out, is that because you have a busy schedule? or because you are not sure how to go about it?

    If you have a busy schedule, you just have to work around it, however small a time you have, even if its a wee 15 min break, just do whatever calms and relaxes you till the break is over, or till you feel ok

    If you dont know how to go about it, basically I'd say start with your intrests,

    My partner uses computer games or music/vids to relax, so he has something that he can access with him all the time, a phone is the most used as its easy to carry and it has both nowadays

    You can't take on everything at once tho so don't try to, but you can take them bits at a time, and just try to keep going 

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  • AnneMargaret said:

    Yes i'm 24. I live with my parents. I've told Mum about harming again. I see my GP Thursday. Tomorrow i have a support group that MIND run so i could talk to staff there if i felt able to although it's actually a social group.

    Yes i could try and take time out but not sure how to do that?

    Last year i lost 6 people close to me and in the last 12 years i've averaged losing one to two a year. It's tough.

    What's an autism team? I am waiting to see social worker to see if i can get a budget to use for finding support networks or something.

    Thank you for replying both of you.

    your welcome, thats what we are all here for isn't it :-)

    It's no wonder you feel this way if you have lost so many people close you to in a short time like that

    You really need to tell the gp and support staff how you feel and how it's affecting you, and a grief counsellor might be of help as you are going through that just now

    When you say you don't know how to take time out, is that because you have a busy schedule? or because you are not sure how to go about it?

    If you have a busy schedule, you just have to work around it, however small a time you have, even if its a wee 15 min break, just do whatever calms and relaxes you till the break is over, or till you feel ok

    If you dont know how to go about it, basically I'd say start with your intrests,

    My partner uses computer games or music/vids to relax, so he has something that he can access with him all the time, a phone is the most used as its easy to carry and it has both nowadays

    You can't take on everything at once tho so don't try to, but you can take them bits at a time, and just try to keep going 

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