Christmas

I like the look of Christmas. Christmas trees and snow snowing.

I do not like people inviting me to Christmas gatherings. I do not go anymore. I only went before to please people. I always feel like I don’t belong there and I do not know what to do there.

Also this time reminds that my goals in life are still far away from fulfilling my wishes and dreams.

Christmas is the time I feel lonely the most.

HI California.  A trip to my local Co-Op on boxing day cheered me no end with the arrival of their Easter Eggs.  Christmas is a time of certain degrees of external pressures.  Be you and be here and heard! x

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Thank you very much for your reply!

I did not expect someone to read and reply to my message.

I thought that my message will go into Space, in vacuum.

I feel quite depressed lately as I feel that I am just existing in this world. I wish I would be able to enjoy something. To see something nice in this world.

It is difficult to be me as I feel most of the people do not understand me.

I can only be me when I am alone.

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Thank you very much for your reply!

I did not expect someone to read and reply to my message.

I thought that my message will go into Space, in vacuum.

I feel quite depressed lately as I feel that I am just existing in this world. I wish I would be able to enjoy something. To see something nice in this world.

It is difficult to be me as I feel most of the people do not understand me.

I can only be me when I am alone.

forced is a strong term to use? When you say your environment, do you mean your home?

The problem I have is that I am forced to be in environment I hate to be in. I wish people would leave me alone. I will never be happy there. The place makes me miserable and depressed.

Are you getting support for your depression?