Running Out Of Hope

Not sure how I am coping currently, I finding very hard to concentrate and do tasks.

I break down emotional every day feeling hopeless.

It feels as everyone hates me especially after my meltdowns especially at work (which I documented in the community forum a few weeks ago)

I just make the same mistakes over and over. 

I have a loving wife and daughter, but my wife can't take much more, over the last two months we have talked about going our seperate ways.

I have alienated family, colleagues and neighbours, I don't have any friends.

I have tried various help, but I have no long term support for my disability including Mencap.

I was contacted by a Mencap worker a few weeks ago after establishing links through the NAS, but I had no support, not even spoken to them in person or by phone. I had a few emails but only to establish my current situation, now my emails are ignored.

I feel depressed and lonely, is it worth me continuing ? I f I go to the doctor I guess I will be put on tablets.

Please help!