Published on 12, July, 2020
Today I have been diagnosed as having autism and aspergers and am looking for people to talk too
Hi me again lol, is it also normal to start noticing urself doing “autistic” things that u haven’t noticed before ie if there’s something near me to fiddle with I’ll fiddle with it ie tv control, a bottle top or my headphones. Also that said fiddling is increased more when anxious which I find strange as I didn’t seem to be as severe before I got diagnosed.
I noticed the autistic side of me more once self-diagnosed, but could look back and see that , say the fidgiting, was something I'd always done. Once I had the formal diagnosis, I felt more relaxed about it all.
I think that's definitely it for me. I've always called it "letting the crazy out", but I've realized it's actually ME allowing ME to be ME. So I like it, and I'm doing it more often rather than feeling I needed to hide it.
At yoga today (first class since being diagnosed a couple of months ago) I realised just how much I stim at yoga! Facial grimaces, little noises, waving my hands.....I've done it before, just never realised what or why. Now I know it's stimming that's great!
Well I’m gonna be brave and tell everyone tomorrow, if some have issues with it and wanna distance themselves from me then I don’t need them in my life anyway. Hopefully after I will start letting mbe me more then
yeah, I get that. But my rationale is "this is the real me so like it or lump it". Those that know me well TBH have probably always thought I was a bit weird anyway, and accepted it and me, so to them I'm just getting a bit weirder! (I'm gradually telling them about my diagnosis as well)