Published on 12, July, 2020
Following some bad experiences with services, our son (23) has refused to have a full autism assessment or to engage with any other services at all. His informal diagnosis with Asperger's by the last consultant we saw has got me thinking though. There have been lots of issues within my family - in my dad and myself but also more widely in that side of the family - that to me seem to stem from autistic traits that have never actually been seen as such. They've instead been interpreted as family eccentricities or, as one aunt has said, the fact that "We're just a funny family." What this has meant is that there was never really any understanding, support or accommodation of our differences. When these differences led to us doing well, they were praised and applauded, when it all went horribly wrong we very often got blamed. I'm now looking back at things through a different lens and finding it quite horrifying. Is there any literature or other resources on the intergenerational effects of autism? I'm feeling like everything depends upon the diagnosis of individuals but that I could draw out a whole genogram and make some sense of things that way. I'm also feeling shortchanged by a system which has, during the various attempts to help our son, asked questions about family background and current family issues, but never really followed up on these. To me this all seems more like a family affair. Any thoughts?
The genetic aspects also bother me because, looking back over my life and the lives of several others within my family, I can see various examples of times when they were met with incomprehension and blame for things which might very well have been beyond their control. It also makes me wonder whether many of the choices I thought I'd made in life were actually genuine choices at all. I clearly had a whole host of limitations which brought to bear and which also led others to judge me, often along the lines of thinking that, since I was academically able, I must have been willfully ignoring things or deliberately making an issue out of finding difficulty with things the themselves found easy.
My OH says that I may have three degrees and a masters but I have no common sense. I have made some very right choices in my life (thus far) and some real duds! What got me with the latter was that no one stepped in and said anything or offered any guidance.