I’m currently on my summer break and don’t go back to uni for my final year until September. I am struggling to live at home or see out the rest of the summer with them around because every time I tell them that I’m feeling down they just say get over it.
For a long time now my parents have been very controlling of me and have prevented me from doing things that I want to do such as going and seeing my friends because they don’t approve of my friends. I have had many conversations with them explaining how I find a lot of what they say hurtful but the don’t care.
When I was diagnosed at the ago of fifteen, and still now and all the years between, my parents have said really nasty things to me such as “we can’t accept a child with Aspergers” or “you’ll never get a job Claudia” or “you’ll never get married and your a c word” or “why does anyone want to be your friend”. But the worst of all which was said to me again today was “we do not want to have you in our house ever again. Go and sleep somewhere else as we can’t have you as our daughter”. All these comments really hurt me and make me cry a lot. I’m currently looking for places to live but can’t see any that I can afford as my parents won’t let me live at home until I go back to uni in September. Every time they say these comments I start to feel awful about myself and like there really is something wrong with me. I also started to believe that even my friends don’t like me even though they say that having me as a friend and knowing me makes their life better. My confidence has been knocked dramatically as has my self-esteem due to what my parents are saying.
No matter how hard I try to explain things to them about how I feel they don’t listen and just keep saying the same things about how they never want to know me again and can I get out of their house and may be due soon. I don’t know what to do?
