I am exhausted and broken because people are trying to turn me into a man when I'm a woman, A WOMAN, a biological woman, I was born a woman, I identify as a woman, but certain people in my life want to make me think like a man so I'll change genders and be unable to have children and therefore won't be able to pass on my genes. My head aches, I feel frightened and on edge, I have cried on and off all day. I've got this overpowering sense of hopelessness. I don't have an appetite but am making myself eat because I don't want to binge - binge eating is a bit of an issue for me. I don't want to wash or care for myself. I have some strong urges to do some very destructive things to myself but I'm just clinging on, trying to keep my head above water because I have my friend from the States coming to stay next week and I have to keep going when all I want to do is hide myself away and cry. I'm so alone. My family don't believe me; they say it's my comorbid mental illness (I have Asperger's and additional mental health issues) making me think this way but I know what people are doing and I know who they are too. It's only me who lives my life so I wish someone would believe me. I just wish someone could protect me from this.
