Has anyone just felt like they're sick of trying so hard all the time?
I just feel like this world is too difficult to navigate and I actually can't cope much longer.
I have far too many problems to list them all here but I feel like my life is going to continue in this cycle because I'm not in the right environment and I don't get the right support.
I was diagnosed at 22 so I've never had any support. I recently contacted the organisation that diagnosed me and two weeks later I'm still waiting for a response. I don't understand why even getting help needs to be so difficult. I feel like I'm on an emotional rollercoaster, there are too many things that affect my mood which I have no control over.
A friend of mine committed suicide almost 18 months ago and I feel like the reason we were so close is because we were so similar and had similar issues. I miss her sooo much it hurts, I don't cry often but I do cry when I think about her. She suffered from anorexia and I am now being referred to some kind of specialist to see if I have an eating disorder. I just feel like it is all a bit too much and I'm not sure what to do next.
