3 months ago, I came here again, to catch you up on the life of myself.
Since then, I have moved house again, after my older brother took advantage of me, and dwindled away all my savings, stopped paying his bills, and relied on me to pay, to help him live. While he went off, and did - quite frankly - whatever the F*ck he wanted.
So I went homeless for 3 weeks, after getting thrown out, after not being able to keep up with my brother's bills, as well as my half. Landlord asked us to leave, at the end of the tenancy of 6 months, as he wanted the house back. (probably cs' late rent coming a week or so late, the last 3 months.)
After going into a homeless accommodation and having a complete meltdown/overload, after a manager was showing us round and lied saying it's quiet. My parents' offered me at their house, thinking it'd be better for myself, and my health.
I'm now in my own 1 bed place in a town, where I can keep it clean, knowing it won't get messed up by my brother, and i can manage my bills, and build my savings back. Which is going extremely well this past 2 weeks, but now I'm starting to remember the constant feeling of isolation. I mean it's always there (not sure if that's the same for everyone.) but stress is a nice distraction. I finished counselling too, that helped slightly, improving my self esteem for a few weeks before it fell back to it's usual.
Now, I'm sort of lost, and was hoping for some sort of "miracle advise" from a Neuro-typical, to help me understand.... or from someone like myself, Autistic, who has came through and found a solution to this problem.
The problem is, meeting people- Girls to be exact - but not completely just them. I find social interactions confusing. I want to meet, and make friends, and even from romantic relationships. I'm in a few clubs (hobby type ones- not the nightclub type.), but i find myself being slightly withdrawn from the groups I am a regular part of. SO, I thought, how does introducing and pushing these regular acquaintances or strangers to friendships, and then more if I so desire?
Google doesn't cure everything, and apparently. Just doing it, until your confident will help. But I can't see that being the case for me.
I feel approaching strangers, Girls especially is sort of wrong, they get enough unwanted attention without me following the rest. But then, how do you know when to approach, or how to.
I'm TOTALLY lost.
