Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi
I am new to this. I am nearly 43 and I am awaiting formal diagnosis. I know whatever they say that I am HFA - ASD. I know it like I know night and day. Under the old way of diagnosis I suspect they would call me Aspergers.
So I'm working myself out. This forum is helping me to articulate and explain things that I couldn't before.
So there is this thing and I can't articulate or name it but I'll describe it and please tell me if anyone else identifies or if it has a name?
When I meet new people or indeed find myself in the room with anyone. I can 'feel' them. I'm rubbish at working out people by what they are saying or doing or the way that they look but when I meet someone I can describe who they emotionally in relation to me almost straight away.
Some people make me feel "undiluted good". I like to be around these people.
Some people make me feel "neutral" I am not decided - they are not bad or good, the signal is blank.
Some people i get a bad feeling from and I want to remove myself from those people.
Occasionally some people make every hair stand on end on my back and I sense that there is something very wrong with them.
I often see that people are not very nice but it isn't because they 'feel bad' to me, it's something else. Then it's that they are not 'bad' but maybe just don't like me.
Anyway so it's not about reading facial expressions, not about reading body language, or decipering what people are saying because I am not good at that.
It's more like a 'sense' I get, a feeling or energy and I could describe it with every person I meet after a short time. They don't need to say or do very much.
I suppose it's a bit like being an empath, I don't know as yet. I am struggling to properly explain it. Empath doesn't sound quite right either.
Can anyone else identify with this?
Thanks.
I sometimes get this around people, at least the bad feeling part, and it's usually accurate. But I'm not sure if that's because they've detected that I feel uncomfortable near them, because that could be the reason we don't get along, if they respond to it.
I more often get good or bad feelings in a particular location, and it isn't always to do with what the place looks like. There's a perfectly ordinary and pleasant looking street just a short distance from where I live, and it feels like fingernails scraping down a blackboard to stand there. No way could I live in one of those houses, but I don't know why.
Yes, I know what you mean. I don't know it's like I can feel an aura if that makes sense. Like, I've got cats, none of them can speak but yet each one has a different personality and a different feeling about their character.
Well it's like I get this exact same thing but with 'people'.
I think that 's the best way I can describe it but it might not mean much to anyone if they don't have animals or know animals.