Not understanding how I feel?

I would never describe myself as suffering with anxiety, but i've just read a bit of a book on amazon (http://www.amazon.co.uk/Asperger-Syndrome-Anxiety-Successful-Management/dp/184310895X/ref=sr_1_4?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1337544870&sr=1-4 page 195) and that is my way of behaving in social situations as a child. I just didnt enjoy playing, but I'd never thought of it as anxiety.

One of the things I keep seeing in relation to anxiety and depression, but to be truthful I  feel more muddled. That's If I have AS (which im 99.999999999% sure I have). Did anyone else through the time of going through diagnosis feel unsure about there identity? I feel a bit weird on this front.

Can anyone recomend any decent books in relation to this or just good general Autism/Aspergers books for adults. I've been cautious not to read so far, as I dont want to influence a diagnosis. I don't want a false diagnosis if you know what I mean. But sod it, curiosity is getting the better of me.

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  • I don't know if I lucid dream but I do have very intense dreams. I can be half awake and half dreaming, the most wonderful state of relaxation which I don't want to wake up from because normally I am so stressed. Classical music often puts me in this state, and I can hallucinate in the early stages of sleep: hear a lovely sound or a clear voice. I am dreaming, but am half awake. I am so relaxed that my body jerks automatically, and I almost experience directly my dream. When I was a child I could will my dream by thinking about something very deeply and closing my eyes very tight, and then I would transport myself onto a concrete path in my dream, but know I was dreaming.

     

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  • I don't know if I lucid dream but I do have very intense dreams. I can be half awake and half dreaming, the most wonderful state of relaxation which I don't want to wake up from because normally I am so stressed. Classical music often puts me in this state, and I can hallucinate in the early stages of sleep: hear a lovely sound or a clear voice. I am dreaming, but am half awake. I am so relaxed that my body jerks automatically, and I almost experience directly my dream. When I was a child I could will my dream by thinking about something very deeply and closing my eyes very tight, and then I would transport myself onto a concrete path in my dream, but know I was dreaming.

     

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