Christmas - Dealing with family expectations

Hi everyone!

It's the time of year when my family start asking me what my plans for Christmas are. I'm an adult who was diagnosed a few years ago. My family tend to get together with lots of people in one house on Christmas day. I always find this difficult to deal with. The last time I attended this celebration, I couldn't eat and I spend the day crying and hiding sat on the floor in a corner of the kitchen. 

So what's the problem?

Only a few very close members of my family know that I have autism. On the day I received my diagnosis, I was told by my mother not to tell members of my family. Since then, the reaction of those who do know seems to be to pretend I am not autistic and I feel a lot of pressure to 'act normal'. I think people feel very awkward about it and don't know how to respond but it makes me feel like its considered something shameful. I don't want to be ashamed of who I am. I can't stand people touching me and I've caused problems at family gatherings before by having a strong negative reaction to hugs, kisses and the like. I hate not being able to explain why I behave the way I do and I feel very isolated from my family.

So back to Christmas.

I don't want to make plans for Christmas, I just want to spend the day at home with my partner (who is the most amazingly supportive person in the world) but I don't know how to tell my family that I can't handle our big family get-together. I would also like to get more involved in family gatherings around the festive season but there's so much pressure to hide my autism.

Can anyone offer any advice on how to deal with the stress of Christmas or how to deal with a family who don't know about autism?

Thanks for reading my long post, I'd love to hear your experiences.

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  • Lucky you!  Being invited to spend Christmas with your family.   

    Christmas only comes round once a year.  

    My advice is to just try to survive it.  Continue to Keep your autism a secret. Try to find some way of making a connection with someone who you can get along with.  It may be a child or a pet (cat, dog) and spend most of your time with them.

    Don't end up like me.  Uninvited and alone at Christmas watching TV.

  • Thanks for the reply. I'm sorry to hear you're feeling lonely at Christmas. You're right, I'm lucky to have a family, it's easy to forget that sometimes.

  • Good evening. If I may, my advice would be similar to that of Robert123, yet I would say that you are lucky to have a PARTNER who is as understanding as you say. I am also invited to "Family" Dinners, yet I simply decline - and whatever reasons they gossip about it for themselves, it is all grist for the mill to myself, concerning their own attitudes in general (i.e. - it must be taken in one's stride yet not totally ignored).
    Nowadays I just hide, or go out to wait until it is all over (the "socialising & dinner party", I mean)... but unlike myself, you say that you have a partner to join you... Insofar as participating yet also not participating (- as you state??? -) you may ask your partner to intervene whenever something upsets or stresses you...?
    Whatever you do, DO at least send or give CARDS; that way you would not appear so much as if totally ignoring/hating anyone concerned. Then, either stay (with your partner)... or go out and ignore "Christmas". Not everyone in any city "celebrates" it anyway, or celebrates it in the same way. Do whatever you want to do (after giving cards).
    It will take a few times (years), yet whomever you know should get used to *your* own ways... But I think it a very sad state of affairs to have to be Autistic while also acting as if being so is a shameful or a secret thing. That is not right at all... you should not have to feel ashamed or to hide your diagnosis.

    ...Imagine if you were instead confined to a wheelchair, and every Christmas, they ignored that and invited you to a Tap-dancing contest?

  • Liri said:

    I'll try sending out cards to everyone, thanks! 

    An attempt at humour here towards being slightly rebellious ~ buy your cards from the NAS!

  • ...Imagine if you were instead confined to a wheelchair, and every Christmas, they ignored that and invited you to a Tap-dancing contest?

    What a a perfect way to sum up autism!

    i also find Christmas and family a challenge....ooooh and life

  • Thanks for your message. I like that tap dancing metaphor, it does seem as impossible as that sometimes. Unfortunately if I go to the family gathering, my partner can't go with me. I'll try sending out cards to everyone, thanks! 

  • Not just being invited to tap-dancing but also having to pretend being able to do it... That's sad indeed, and you must not even appear like feeling offended by it.

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