Therapy allowed me to cry for the first time in two years

I last remember crying in December 2021. Since then, I've had tears here and there but not a genuine sadness. I have tried to make myself cry but to no avail.

In therapy, I began talking about how I saw her as a maternal figure, and then I mentioned that it reminded me of the film, The Secret Garden (1993). It was shown to us at school when I was 10. I don't remember the plot very well but I remember it being the most depressing thing I had ever watched. There was a theme where the lead character was abandoned by her mother. I think those feelings just brought it out of me.

I've had a tough year after I lost every friend I ever had, so it likely compounded. It surprised me because I have had many issues with my parents, namely the lack of understanding around my needs.

Thankfully she did not judge and told me that I don't need to be sorry and so on, but it's probably what I needed, and I know that I felt safe enough with her to do it.