Had an interesting revelation today.
As an adult with Aspergers who is also determined to actually earn some money and be successful in business, I find myself constantly tinkering with and re-calibrating my diet for maximum energy and resources to use during the day. Generally speaking, like so many other autistic people, I find myself the most centred, peaceful, stable and consistent on a very low-carb diet, usually some variation on phase 1 Atkins. However, while living on a low-carb diet, I find my energy levels - already naturally pretty low and easily depleted - drop quite low by the end of the work day, and I begin to be very grumpy, anti-social and unpleasant etc as I approach aspergers burnout for that day.
A few years ago while reading up on Atkins, I discovered that black coffee was permissible, and so gave it a try. At first the taste was not what I was used to - but it grew on me, and now I love it. And more than that, I found that every time I drank it, I got this huge energy boost, I was able to tap resources I previously had not had access to (although, as always with Aspergers, they presented their bill later and I had to rest rest rest and recover). I soon discovered that, while the effects of the coffee lasted, I was able to act much closer to neurotypical, which in my line of work was very very helpful indeed. And coffee is addictive.
At the beginning of the past school year (Sept 2017) I began having a huge black coffee twice every day, and the effects were fascinating. It was as if the coffee was allowing me to stretch my limited resources like elastic, to stretch them and stretch them to the point that I could function for the whole work day as a neurotypical person. Of course, I would practically curl into the foetal position by the end of the day under the covers in a dark, silent, tidy room. But in all brutal honesty, it was so nice to experience what it is like to work a normal day without battling against the constant social awkwardness brought on by the low-energy slump that running out of resources as an Aspie causes.
The past 2-3 weeks I have been experiencing stabbing stomach pains, and after experimenting around with multiple different things, have discovered today that the coffee and constant amping-up of my body and mind with it to be the cause of the pain. I have used black coffee to stretch my inner resources and am now experiencing what it feels like to teeter on the very edge of that breaking point where my body starts waving a little while flag and saying 'no more or Im going to start to break'.
So today I didn't have my morning coffee, and I can feel the healing starting already, I am feeling much happier and relaxed, and am going to lay off it probably for the rest of the week.
However, I'm not going to lay off it completely. My experience has taught me that coffee, if treated like a mood-managing medication, can be incredibly helpful. If treated like a pleasurable indulgence it can be a little dangerous because it is so addictive, and the body can only take being driven into hyper-mode for so long. I expect going forward I will use black coffee as an on-the-spot treatment if I feel myself falling backwards into a low-energy slump at an inconvenient time. The rest of the time I'm going to lay off it to allow my body and mind to actually recover from the excursion into hyper-mode (something I have been neglecting to do recently).
Has anyone else had similar experiences with coffee?
A whole discussion about coffee!
For me coffee is a safe option. I am very fussy about tea.
I will only drink brands of tea that I like the taste of and I can't stand decaffeinated tea. So I will only drink tea that I like.
But when it comes to coffee, any brand, decaffeinated or not is drinkable. So when people offer me tea or coffee?. I always choose coffee because I know I can drink it.
Coffee is my social drink of choice. Anything up to 5 cups a day is ok.
I only drink hot water (and an occasional cup of tea), however, I do enjoy a good coffee made into a cappuccino and because I’m particular about what I put into my body, I go to great lengths to learn all about coffee. I’ve started a course on coffee, which is fascinating and the course on latte art was great fun, I also got a job in a coffee shop so I can practice my latte art and coffee making skills (although I’m no longer working at the coffee shop at this present time) and it’s opened up a whole new world for me. From learning about the nutrients in the soil which effect the quality and grade of coffee, to the world latte art championships, it’s amazing and I’ve met some truly inspiring people so far from my interest in coffee. And I’ve now got a skill I can use anywhere in the world, should I need to find work. I’m not only great at making coffee, I can tell people all about it and put a smile on their face with my art work :-)