Scared of going for a diagnosis

Hi All,

I'm new to community and looking for general support and advise...

I have been slowly coming to realisation that I'm likely Autistic and it has taken a lot of time piecing things together to come to this point.

The issue I'm now having is going for a diagnosis scares me silly. I worry about not being authentic and it all being in my head. Being a woman and learning to mask to survive to a level that I'm not even aware of scares me that I might not get the diagnosis. Having no-one from my childhood years that can provide information, very little of my own memory as a child and evidence as a child also means I worry I can't get diagnosis.  

These doubts stop my going ahead as it become too overwhelming for me, but I also need help to then start the unmasking process and get help getting to know people. I feel quite lonely at the moment and don't really have friends or family I can open up to.

Bit of a ramble above, but looking to see have others had this same experience of emotions and feeling of the process? Some confirmation from others of similar experiences to my own could really help alleviate the anxiety.

Also, any advise on your experience as a woman going through process would be gladly received.

Thank, Alice

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  • For me it is similar. 

    Some of us won't just fully trust the result, since they can not be always entirely accurate.

    Hence, personally, I took the result simply as an extra piece of evidence, and kept working on my struggles in the same way. This thought helped to ease some anxiety during the wait as well.

    I don't remember much of my childhood. They had some opinion of my mom only. So they worked with more of my timeline from teenage years onwards.

    (I should add, I am a man, just for context.)

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  • For me it is similar. 

    Some of us won't just fully trust the result, since they can not be always entirely accurate.

    Hence, personally, I took the result simply as an extra piece of evidence, and kept working on my struggles in the same way. This thought helped to ease some anxiety during the wait as well.

    I don't remember much of my childhood. They had some opinion of my mom only. So they worked with more of my timeline from teenage years onwards.

    (I should add, I am a man, just for context.)

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