Im not sure what is happening but after a late diagnosis of autism at age 44 two months ago things have got worse between me and my husband, Ive been trying to unmask and its been horrible, everytime I try and reveal something of myself or request more of what I need sometimes its taken with understanding and other times theres such push back and I'm feeling more confsued than ever.
I got to the point where I said I was going to leave him and he was really upset and begged me to have neurodivergent couples counselling but I'm so exhausted from it all, weve had two sessions but still having major issues. Ive basically felt like the marriage has always been more accomodating to his needs, Ive masked heavily which he says isnt happening and that Ive always been me around him, I may have but Ive kept many needs shut down, which essentially is masking. I am now angry and resentful that he never noticied how much I carried , I mean I would have noticied of he was carrying too much if it were the other way roundbut I am autistic. I cant stop thinking that after 25 years Ive just had enough of trying to explain myself and that it will never end, Ive been feeling very low.
Is anyone else here late diagnosised autistic and their partner not autistic? I feel like Im cracking up.
