Hi Everyone 
This is my first post as I'm new to the forum. Nice to meet you all
I'm in my 30s and was diagnosed a couple of years back with Autism and ADHD. I've struggled most my life with mental health and when I was diagnosed it was like a light bulb moment for me and I understood why I'd struggled so much at school and throughout my adult life.
I went into therapy and have made some great progress and feel like I'm at a really good place in my life. So I decided to go back to university (part time.)
I started this Saturday and I was there for 7 hours and I came home in tears feeling like I was back to square one. The feelings of being different and inadequate came back so quickly.
Most of the day was spent doing group work which I found so exhausting and uncomfortable. I really struggle with speaking to others and when I do I'm constantly flooded with thoughts about if I'm doing the right facial expression, did I speak too soon, do they think I'm rude, or that I've upset them.
At lunch time I could see everyone just chatting amongst themselves freely and those feelings of not fitting in but at the same time not wanting to be part of the group came back. When we had to work in groups I felt bad on the person working with me because I can't be like the others.
Since yesterday I've felt achy, nauseous, headache, really tired, and tearful. Like I've got the flu. I've read burnout is usually something that builds up over weeks and months? I'm not sure how to describe what I'm experiencing to my tutor when talking about what might help next time for me.
Thanks so much for reading
