A few years ago, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, autism, and ADHD in my home country before moving to the UK.
The diagnoses came after several months of weekly consultations with a psychiatrist. However, only the bipolar diagnosis was disclosed to me at the time. I only found out later—through an official letter the psychiatrist had sent to the NHS—that he had also diagnosed me with autism and ADHD.
I was only treated for bipolar, and the medication caused some pretty bad side effects.
My GP here told me I could stop the medication, saying my issues seemed more like emotional dysregulation than a mood disorder.
Since stopping medication, I’ve been unmedicated, but I still have intense meltdowns, especially when I’m physically stressed (e.g., sleep deprivation, skipped meals, overexertion at the gym).
My GP is skeptical about my original diagnoses. He said mental health labels are rarely clear-cut, unlike physical conditions, and that it’s impossible to truly know the cause of my symptoms.
He suggested therapy and recommended I avoid overexerting myself physically as a way to manage the meltdowns.
It was my partner who strongly encouraged me to research autism further, as he noticed I showed many traits. Since then, I’ve found online resources and tools life-changing—they’ve helped me make sense of so much about myself.
But I also feel conflicted. My views now don’t line up with my GP’s, and I’m scared that I’m just “internet surfing” and self-diagnosing based on traits I happen to relate to. I’ve read that self-diagnosis can be valid, but I also worry (given my mental health history) if it’s really safe for me to rely on that alone.
I’d really like a formal autism assessment, but I can’t afford a private one. What’s especially confusing is that I’m already officially registered with the NHS as having bipolar, autism, and ADHD, yet I haven’t received any support for autism or ADHD.
Right now, I feel stuck and aimless, and not sure how to move forward.
I’d really appreciate to know if anyone has been through something similar or has advice!