This doesn't have to be replied to. You're welcome to but I'm not expecting it, I wrote this for myself as it's helped to lift a lot off my chest this evening.
Sometimes I feel like a horrible person. I don't think I am, I always try not to be I try to be the best of myself. Finally I'm feeling more positive about myself and an going to try harder to move on with my life.
I knew someone and I really tried with him to make things work, I was willing to video call with his mum which was his request and then she was suddenly ill, so we put that off and then he deleted his email and created a new one but then deleted that one as well and he hasn't been in touch since then so I'm not sure if he was ever genuine as there was rumours from people who knew him that he pretended to be his mum and nan through email.
I did ask here if I should keep in touch. Everyone said he was a red flag but when he got in touch I wanted to give him that chance and now I have well looking at it now I guess it looks like I got a lucky escape from all this but I do feel hurt that this happened in the first place.
I guess this means I can move on from him now and start enjoying my life again. I just wish he had been the real deal as I liked him a lot.
If there's a next time I am hoping he will be genuine and it will work out. Something to look forward to but for now it's time to focus on me and live again.
