Recently diagnosed - No idea who I am any more

Hey - new here and hoping to get some friendly advice on how to cope with being diagnosed recently. I’m 34 and i was 95% convinced I was autistic for about 4 years before I actually got officially diagnosed, so when I finally got the confirmation that all my suspicions were right, I felt a huge sense of relief and validation. Now, about a fortnight on, my euphoric relief has turned into a deep dark dissociative space. I’m depressive, vacant and don’t want to talk to anyone or do anything social. I am aware of how down I am, but can’t do anything about it. I feel like I’ve now been given the green light to know who I really am… and now I’m completely overwhelmed. I feel like I have to get to know a new person. And that person is me.. who I thought I already knew… help !

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  • Now, about a fortnight on, my euphoric relief has turned into a deep dark dissociative space. I’m depressive, vacant and don’t want to talk to anyone or do anything social. I am aware of how down I am, but can’t do anything about it

    Have you had these feelings before?

    I feel like I have to get to know a new person. And that person is me.. who I thought I already knew…

    You may seem new to yourself, but there are parts of you that you know. At the moment, with the confirmation of your diagnosis, those parts are currently obscured by the new focus. They will reappear.

    I feel like I have to get to know a new person.

    Rephrasing may help here. It might appear less overwhelming if you think you will get to know new aspects of yourself.

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  • Now, about a fortnight on, my euphoric relief has turned into a deep dark dissociative space. I’m depressive, vacant and don’t want to talk to anyone or do anything social. I am aware of how down I am, but can’t do anything about it

    Have you had these feelings before?

    I feel like I have to get to know a new person. And that person is me.. who I thought I already knew…

    You may seem new to yourself, but there are parts of you that you know. At the moment, with the confirmation of your diagnosis, those parts are currently obscured by the new focus. They will reappear.

    I feel like I have to get to know a new person.

    Rephrasing may help here. It might appear less overwhelming if you think you will get to know new aspects of yourself.

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