intrusive thoughts from PTSD

Autistics need resolution. It's part of the monotropic brain. We can be hyper-analytical which is an asset, but as a default, it can create a great deal of stress when too many things, or even one, is left without resolve. 

At some point, we have to come to "terms with" the past. When I use this phrase I think of a contract, which is what it means. What are the terms? On what terms, under what context did a thing happen. Who was involved. What did I not know then I know now. And so on. There are some terms - or situations that I have found over 20 years may not have a resolve but I have come closer to closing down many elements of them or elements to recollect when the thoughts pop back up. 

In the best case, one finds resolve from a severed relationship when the other party who created damage apologises. This has happened to me on too many occasions. Sometimes after a few years, sometimes after 7. And that acknowledgement can be enough to create a resolution. 

Autistics go through life feeling misunderstood and misrepresented. Often without the wisdom, psychology, psychoanalysis, philosophy and vocabulary to express or defend themselves. This compounds feeling assaulted or unjustly accused or wronged in whatever way. It can take a long time to learn what one needs to get along in life. But intrusive thoughts aren't always bad. Usually they're a sign - post to a path toward a process of redemption of a sort. They send us smoke signals saying something needs attention so we don't carry it the rest of our lives. They can be important to acknowledge and begin to unpack. But that is only a small step in a long chain of events which will need further clarification. 

I'd buy a notebook and start writing these out. Learn problem solving and find a writer or philosopher or self help guru who might have a thing or two to say about the key frustration of these events.

Autistics need resolution. It's part of the monotropic brain. We can be hyper-analytical which is an asset, but as a default, it can create a great deal of stress when too many things, or even one, is left without resolve. 

At some point, we have to come to "terms with" the past. When I use this phrase I think of a contract, which is what it means. What are the terms? On what terms, under what context did a thing happen. Who was involved. What did I not know then I know now. And so on. There are some terms - or situations that I have found over 20 years may not have a resolve but I have come closer to closing down many elements of them or elements to recollect when the thoughts pop back up. 

In the best case, one finds resolve from a severed relationship when the other party who created damage apologises. This has happened to me on too many occasions. Sometimes after a few years, sometimes after 7. And that acknowledgement can be enough to create a resolution. 

Autistics go through life feeling misunderstood and misrepresented. Often without the wisdom, psychology, psychoanalysis, philosophy and vocabulary to express or defend themselves. This compounds feeling assaulted or unjustly accused or wronged in whatever way. It can take a long time to learn what one needs to get along in life. But intrusive thoughts aren't always bad. Usually they're a sign - post to a path toward a process of redemption of a sort. They send us smoke signals saying something needs attention so we don't carry it the rest of our lives. They can be important to acknowledge and begin to unpack. But that is only a small step in a long chain of events which will need further clarification. 

I'd buy a notebook and start writing these out. Learn problem solving and find a writer or philosopher or self help guru who might have a thing or two to say about the key frustration of these events.

JuniperFromGallifrey said:

Autistics need resolution

This is a really sharp formulation.

It is something I struggle with - looping thoughts, a sense of it being unresolved.

There might even be something on this site she relates with www.thearticulateautistic.com