Now my whole week is ruined I don't really know how to say this but basically yesterday or today too well for 9 days now I've been feeling suicidal and took to drastic measures to email all 6 people who help not a psychiatrist or psychologist about well my feelings. Got a phone call from the head teacher of my school not mentioning the names that last week she phoned social services and now they're coming to speak to me in 1h and 30min idk for how long but yeah. Have mixed emotions about what I put other people through and not listening to what people say around me or to me and idk if I made a mistake doing that or yeah. I just need some words about what I should do next .
