This week i thought would be a good week for me but now it got ruined just because of 2 people had to cancel their plans with me anyway that doesn't matter anymore. Today was one of the hardest days of my life because i woke up with allergies sneezing and huge headache now and week um i was in arguments with my parents and how should i say this tbh . Its all my fault. I don't think anyone has time to read this it all started last week when my bff fatima and her sister basera and my old teacher called and they said they cancelled going out but that wasn't the bad thing that happened I'm gradually completely going deaf from my ear and eyes eye sight too and how should i say to make stories short well today it was my sister she started swearing at me and it's my fauilt . My nightmares sometimes come in real life the reason is i had a nightmare on monday seeing i cut my sister's favourite teddy bear and um i had to do it then she started throwing a tantrum(ps, she' s 10 now her birthday was this week) and um yeah that's what mainly happened and why everything turned into the worst week possible . I need to put this behind . And this morning i was crying for 1h so i had to call the samaritans and talk to them about what happened . Literally idk what's gonna happen to me next week . IDK why people have to blame me for everything . And now I'm literally too scared to go back to college next week because i feel something worse is gonna happen next week i can't shrug this feeling anymore . In college for the past 1mon I've been getting bullied and it made me feel suicidal during semptember when it happened . By this girl named Chantelle and it was so so so so um horrible lieterally and yeah . I didn't say this to anyone here but i think now the time to say this . I am Kawthar J 19 and i have ADHD OCD DEPRESSION ANXIETY AUTISM AND MILD DYSLEXIA and i came from IRAN one of the worst countries on earth literally as some might know what's happening in IRAN now . That's all . ALSO my hobbies are , listening to music , reading books, playing mindfulness colouring on my ipad ,. talking to my bffs and many more .
