My son is 5 years old and I have 'known' that he is autistic since he was ~2 years old (I have previously worked with autistic children and believe I am too, undiagnosed). I approached the health visitor about getting an assessment earlier this year and when looking at his development/skills etc she agreed to refer him. His school have now also raised their 'concerns' and are looking at putting him on the SEN register and organising an EHCP. I emailed the health visitor again last night to ask about our last appointment in more detail and she said 'developmental delay in all areas except communication' (he has problems with his speech so feel that is inaccurate but besides the point for here).
None of this came as a surprise but since hearing the school's concerns and seeing the words there in black and white 'developmental delay' I have felt so emotional and overwhelmed. I think to a degree I have almost 'ignored' on my part everything that is more difficult, the extra care, the extra needs, compared to my older children as he is my 'baby' and I have mothered him, IYSWIM. I haven't accepted that actually my mothering isn't enough, he needs more help, support and assistance. I am worried now what school will be like for him, what life will be like. Now he is 'out in the world' I feel less in control and unable to protect him as I could before.
Sorry for the rant, hoping someone may feel, or have felt the same.
