I hate myself. As of last week, I was in a family of four, where one of our teenage sons who has Asperger's. There has been a strain on my relationship with him, exacerbated by my parenting expectations inevitably fuelled his lack of love towards me. The family was already fractured and strained, my wife and I would not agree my approach to parenting him, but online texting with another woman has sealed our fate and am now facing Divorce. i am broken, moved out of the family home and trying to keep a relationship with my youngest son during this holiday week. They are off on a pre-planned holiday, next week, for 3 weeks. I wish I could have figured-out how to have a relationship with him. Life may have been so different. I live with regret, shame and now loss.
