Autism In Hindsight?

Hi!

Was wondering the other day, because I was diagnosed at age 31, if these two anecdotes are displays of autism when I was a child.

The one is that as a child, and even still as an adult, I have a great aversion to the word 'pardon'. I don't know why - I just hate it.  I hate the sound and it just makes me cringe.  Just typing it is horrible for me.

One such anecdote was when I was about six and my family and I were having dinner. They all stopped eating and were staring at me all of a sudden.  They asked me to say the word.  Apparently, I had burped but I swear I hadn't.  Even to this day, I won't concede it.

I refused to say it.  I didn't have a tantrum or anything, I just clammed up and said nothing.  I tried to say that I hadn't burped but they did not believe me.  They sent me up to my room - about six adults ganging up on a child!

I went to my room with my dinner getting cold downstairs.  Two family members came up to me.  One had a go at me and shouted at me to say the P word.  I didn't.  They gave up and went back downstairs.  Another came to see me and was much gentler.  But he basically backed me into a metaphorical corner and I then just said it under my breath.  This was enough.  I was allowed back downstairs.

One of my family members said that I had to say the word again but the person that came to me in my room said that I didn't.

The second anecdote was that, for a long time, I had a problem with the letter B.  I hated it and on one occasion, when playing make believe (I only liked doing this if I was in charge and decided who was who), I was told I had to be a character who's name began with B.  The name could not be changed as it was a character from a film.  I would not do it so I took no part in play that day.

I eventually got over my problem with the letter B when I read a book about a horse named Bella.  I love horses and the horse was extremely beautiful.  Bella means beautiful so now I associate the letter B with beautiful.

I don't know if this type of behaviour rings true for anyone else with autism.  Please let me know.

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  • Hi, this is really interesting to read..

    i experience something similar I cannot stand the word "pump" 

    when someone says it, it makes my insides go funny! My whole body cringes.

    People think it hilarious and try to wind me up by saying it! I'd never ever say it myself and like you say it's cringey just  think it or type it.

    I'd never thought it could be related to my autism. 

    Atleast you can use "excuse me" instead.. :) im still trying to figure out another word for my god awful word! Haha

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  • Hi, this is really interesting to read..

    i experience something similar I cannot stand the word "pump" 

    when someone says it, it makes my insides go funny! My whole body cringes.

    People think it hilarious and try to wind me up by saying it! I'd never ever say it myself and like you say it's cringey just  think it or type it.

    I'd never thought it could be related to my autism. 

    Atleast you can use "excuse me" instead.. :) im still trying to figure out another word for my god awful word! Haha

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