Autism In Hindsight?

Hi!

Was wondering the other day, because I was diagnosed at age 31, if these two anecdotes are displays of autism when I was a child.

The one is that as a child, and even still as an adult, I have a great aversion to the word 'pardon'. I don't know why - I just hate it.  I hate the sound and it just makes me cringe.  Just typing it is horrible for me.

One such anecdote was when I was about six and my family and I were having dinner. They all stopped eating and were staring at me all of a sudden.  They asked me to say the word.  Apparently, I had burped but I swear I hadn't.  Even to this day, I won't concede it.

I refused to say it.  I didn't have a tantrum or anything, I just clammed up and said nothing.  I tried to say that I hadn't burped but they did not believe me.  They sent me up to my room - about six adults ganging up on a child!

I went to my room with my dinner getting cold downstairs.  Two family members came up to me.  One had a go at me and shouted at me to say the P word.  I didn't.  They gave up and went back downstairs.  Another came to see me and was much gentler.  But he basically backed me into a metaphorical corner and I then just said it under my breath.  This was enough.  I was allowed back downstairs.

One of my family members said that I had to say the word again but the person that came to me in my room said that I didn't.

The second anecdote was that, for a long time, I had a problem with the letter B.  I hated it and on one occasion, when playing make believe (I only liked doing this if I was in charge and decided who was who), I was told I had to be a character who's name began with B.  The name could not be changed as it was a character from a film.  I would not do it so I took no part in play that day.

I eventually got over my problem with the letter B when I read a book about a horse named Bella.  I love horses and the horse was extremely beautiful.  Bella means beautiful so now I associate the letter B with beautiful.

I don't know if this type of behaviour rings true for anyone else with autism.  Please let me know.

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  • Hi - I can identify with this in several related ways, though none are quite the same thing you report.  I'm 56 (and recently diagnosed with Asperger's) so my childhood was in the 1960s & 70s.

    My mother - who I now suspect was also autistic - taught me simple maths by writing numbers on picture cards which I think were from a "Happy Families" pack.  Although I've forgotten most of the number/picture associations, two still stick in my mind:  32 = birthday cake and 27 = ironing board.  The latter has always been particularly vivid for me.  Whenever I look at an ironing board, I think of the number 27 - which, when written in a certain way, even resembles a traditional ironing board to me, though it was probably pure coincidence my mother chose that number!

    Among our collection of pop records was one called "Needles and Pins".  I could not bear to be in the room when this was played (I'd run out of the room and put my fingers in my ears) because I already had - and still have - a huge phobia about being pricked or pierced, mostly in a medical context, though I find even sewing quite stressful and always worry about accidentally catching myself with a needle or losing one.

    Although I don't have any particular aversion to the "P" word, as a boy I found it terribly difficult to apologise or be polite in a way that (to me) was an admission of inferiority.  At primary school we never had to address the schoolmasters as "sir" so when I moved to a more traditional secondary school, where that was required, I found the word almost impossible to utter and would avoid doing so unless the omission was really obvious (as in class register) and even then I mumbled it!   Similarly, when I visited my posh aunt, it was expected of children to ask, "Please may I leave the table."  I could not bear to say this, so always remained at the table, with the adults, regardless of my boredom!

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  • Hi - I can identify with this in several related ways, though none are quite the same thing you report.  I'm 56 (and recently diagnosed with Asperger's) so my childhood was in the 1960s & 70s.

    My mother - who I now suspect was also autistic - taught me simple maths by writing numbers on picture cards which I think were from a "Happy Families" pack.  Although I've forgotten most of the number/picture associations, two still stick in my mind:  32 = birthday cake and 27 = ironing board.  The latter has always been particularly vivid for me.  Whenever I look at an ironing board, I think of the number 27 - which, when written in a certain way, even resembles a traditional ironing board to me, though it was probably pure coincidence my mother chose that number!

    Among our collection of pop records was one called "Needles and Pins".  I could not bear to be in the room when this was played (I'd run out of the room and put my fingers in my ears) because I already had - and still have - a huge phobia about being pricked or pierced, mostly in a medical context, though I find even sewing quite stressful and always worry about accidentally catching myself with a needle or losing one.

    Although I don't have any particular aversion to the "P" word, as a boy I found it terribly difficult to apologise or be polite in a way that (to me) was an admission of inferiority.  At primary school we never had to address the schoolmasters as "sir" so when I moved to a more traditional secondary school, where that was required, I found the word almost impossible to utter and would avoid doing so unless the omission was really obvious (as in class register) and even then I mumbled it!   Similarly, when I visited my posh aunt, it was expected of children to ask, "Please may I leave the table."  I could not bear to say this, so always remained at the table, with the adults, regardless of my boredom!

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