Hello my name is Rachel and I have asperges syndrome I also suffer from anxiety and depression. Well I always get these thoughts about hurting people I can control these thoughts and I also, work part time. I feel I can't tell my parents because they would freak out the only person that knows is my ex boyfriend who is still a friend of mine which brings me onto the next thing. Me and my ex had a messy brake up and things had been really awkward it's only now after 6 months we starting to communicate again. He has also agreed to meet me as friends but when I asked when he free to meet me he doesn't respond we just about over things I worry about him when I shouldn't be and then I have flash backs of the day we broke up whiwhich destresses me. I want me and my ex to become close friends again and I will be asking him again when he free. I feel I need to clear the air with my ex before I can start to move on. I just want to know really what to do about these thoughts I can't remember thr the last time I felt happy I just seem to hate my life.