Being Different Bothers Me

Hello,

I was a member here a while ago but I forgot my details and had to join again. I've got them written down now.

I was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome and OCD in 2011 and since then I haven't felt myself. Life is really confusing now and it seems to be getting harder for me to understand. I'm noticeably different from other people. I'm past my teens and I still suck my thumb, I walk around with my Spongebob blanket and I still play with my toys and watch kid DVDs and TV series. My Asperger's makes me worry about health and sickness to the extent that I don't really travel far and I also avoid new foods and people in case I get ill. I've had this problem since before 2011 and it has only got worse as I have got older! I also am confused about my gender, quite a lot I wonder if I'd be happier if I was a girl rather than a boy. I won't go in to too much detail as I'm not sure if I am allowed, but being a girl is something I've liked the idea off for a long time now but I'm just not sure if I can tell my Mum and Dad about how I'm feeling. They are super supportive of me and my health, but I rarely speak to them about it as my Dad has Type 2 Diabetes and my Mum has depression and is quite ill with it.

I just feel really different from what everyone else is and when I read about Autism online, I haven't read about anybody who is like me. I feel alone and being different bothers me a lot.

Has anyone here been through a similar thing? If you have any advice it would be really nice to hear how you coped through it :)

Love and hugs.