Being Different Bothers Me

I am fairly new to this forum and have lost my own log in details to so many different things, like online selling places for example. The amount of times I have had to obtain new details.  Me personally, I am on this site to help me understand my daughters condition better, we only recieved a confirmed diagnosis at the end of August.

I just wanted to comment on some of the things you mention.  I am not Autistic, my elder sister is not and she was over thirty when she stopped sucking her thumb (not kidding!). I love watching Kids TV and series.  Ok, I have to have them on for my children, but I did catch myself watching one the other day, the kids were outside, and I hadn't seen this episode - so I had to watch it!  There are lots of grown ups that love toys, yours may be different, but look at the resurgence of interest in train sets and lego.  And I may not walk around with a blanket, but I do generally sleep with a teddy.  (Part of this is becasue I lost my husband to cancer in May), but I genuinely had teddies (very plural) in my bed until I had moved in with my husband (late twenties).

My reasoning behind this message is that, I may not be Autistic, I wouldn't say I was normal, whatever that actually is, but your behaviours are not uncharacteristic of those around you who 'appear' to be normal.  they may be able to hide their oddities easier than you.  it doesn't actually make you different.

Every person on this planet is different, some are good and kind, some like to start wars.  You like a few kids shows, a blanket and some toys, so?  I would rather meet you than a warmonger!

In regards to your other dilemmas, you really need to obtain some proffesional help.  If you feel femanine, then it is surely your choice.  

If you don't want to visit you GP due to the bugs, then telephone them and ask for a telephone appointment (thats generally what we get this way).  Tell them your worries and concerns.  They may offer medication, or other natural remedies (not to cure, but help).  Hypnotherapy is supposed to be good for things like OCD (Not saying is the route to take) do some research.  Again, if you are worried to much to leave the home, use the computer or telephone to research.  Speak to samaritans, they are there to help, a freindly voice may be what you need.

My parents have nothing to do with me, haven't met my son (3), have seen my daughter (8) twice I think and didn't go to my husbands funeral.  Your parents sound lovely.  Your mum could be worried about you and doesn't know how to broach the subject and is becoming depressed. (again, not saying this is definately true)  Try and speak to them.  I have heard that in some cases, the parents work it out before the children.  At the end of the day, you are who you are, and nobody can take that from you.  You just need to figure it out for yourself.

Look at Eddie Izzard - he wears make up, has his nails done, I think he even crossdresses.  He still calls himself a man and is happy.  Ask someone in the know for advice on this matter.  Again, this is not because you are Autistic that you feel like this, it is just becuase of how you are made.

I truly hope you can find the answers you need to help yourself.  I will try to look out if you want to talk again.  I am struggling to navigate round the site a little.

Take care, and lets hope the next part of your life will let you feel more comfortable with yourself.

I am fairly new to this forum and have lost my own log in details to so many different things, like online selling places for example. The amount of times I have had to obtain new details.  Me personally, I am on this site to help me understand my daughters condition better, we only recieved a confirmed diagnosis at the end of August.

I just wanted to comment on some of the things you mention.  I am not Autistic, my elder sister is not and she was over thirty when she stopped sucking her thumb (not kidding!). I love watching Kids TV and series.  Ok, I have to have them on for my children, but I did catch myself watching one the other day, the kids were outside, and I hadn't seen this episode - so I had to watch it!  There are lots of grown ups that love toys, yours may be different, but look at the resurgence of interest in train sets and lego.  And I may not walk around with a blanket, but I do generally sleep with a teddy.  (Part of this is becasue I lost my husband to cancer in May), but I genuinely had teddies (very plural) in my bed until I had moved in with my husband (late twenties).

My reasoning behind this message is that, I may not be Autistic, I wouldn't say I was normal, whatever that actually is, but your behaviours are not uncharacteristic of those around you who 'appear' to be normal.  they may be able to hide their oddities easier than you.  it doesn't actually make you different.

Every person on this planet is different, some are good and kind, some like to start wars.  You like a few kids shows, a blanket and some toys, so?  I would rather meet you than a warmonger!

In regards to your other dilemmas, you really need to obtain some proffesional help.  If you feel femanine, then it is surely your choice.  

If you don't want to visit you GP due to the bugs, then telephone them and ask for a telephone appointment (thats generally what we get this way).  Tell them your worries and concerns.  They may offer medication, or other natural remedies (not to cure, but help).  Hypnotherapy is supposed to be good for things like OCD (Not saying is the route to take) do some research.  Again, if you are worried to much to leave the home, use the computer or telephone to research.  Speak to samaritans, they are there to help, a freindly voice may be what you need.

My parents have nothing to do with me, haven't met my son (3), have seen my daughter (8) twice I think and didn't go to my husbands funeral.  Your parents sound lovely.  Your mum could be worried about you and doesn't know how to broach the subject and is becoming depressed. (again, not saying this is definately true)  Try and speak to them.  I have heard that in some cases, the parents work it out before the children.  At the end of the day, you are who you are, and nobody can take that from you.  You just need to figure it out for yourself.

Look at Eddie Izzard - he wears make up, has his nails done, I think he even crossdresses.  He still calls himself a man and is happy.  Ask someone in the know for advice on this matter.  Again, this is not because you are Autistic that you feel like this, it is just becuase of how you are made.

I truly hope you can find the answers you need to help yourself.  I will try to look out if you want to talk again.  I am struggling to navigate round the site a little.

Take care, and lets hope the next part of your life will let you feel more comfortable with yourself.