Hi my names Rachel I posted a lot on here about recent events that have been happening through out my life. Anyway things are slowly starting to get better but life is still hard hate living at home with my parents I just don't feel happy anymore living there. Work is stressful last week I had to deal with a death a patient on the ward I worked on passed away suddenly can't say why and I found it hard as I've never experienced that before. Me and my ex are speaking again yay lol but I only over Facebook for the time being but things are moving forward with that. The thing I struggle with is my best friend don't have time for me anymore since she gotten with her boyfriend. They both are on the spectrum and my friend before she met her boyfriend she was like a sister to me she was always sociable she always nag me to meet her all the time. Since her man came onto he scene she never goes out when I see her she with her boyfriend all the time she gone really quite doesn't hug our other friends that are guys anymore and I don't think it wrong to hug other men in a friendly way when your with someone. It upsets me I sometimes get angry when I see the two of them together felt like saying to my friends boyfriend f..k off you t..t but I know I will only make matters worse. I'm also down because I want to be a nurse but I haven't got the qualifications to go to uni and I haven't got the money to go to college to get my qualifications. All of this has been bringing me down. Also I absolutely hate it when people say knock your ex on the head stop tourchering yourself. We talking now we want to be friends and work on things he was my first proper friend he been like a brother to me didn't care that I was on the spectrum in fact he helped me through my diagnosis ok he didn't do much all he did was speak to me on Facebook but I knew I could go to him if I needed someone to talk to. Met up in person after speaking for god know how long online. It was nice and we got on and we moved on from the painful brake up.
