Life with autism and hobbies

Hello,

My name is Callum and I'm 15 years old. I  diagnosed with high functioning autism at 6. I have been obsessed with planes for as long as I have been alive. I find my autism a blessing and a curse. A pro would be that i am the very red that can look at a plane 20,000ft above the air and tell you exactly what plane it is. (Trust me I have been tested). Also I have a photographic memory. But then there is the cons. No one and I mean NO ONE truly understands the stress levels I am every second of my life. Even if I'm having a good day, randomly I could have a panic attack for no reason which then takes me hours to calm down which takes me away from my education. Another con is that when im super stressed I can't help what I say then afterwards when I calm down I don't remember what I said. This makes me confused and I can't understand why And then due to my very black and white thinking that makes me scared hat i don't know the reason why because in my head I have tics when I cant give somthing  answer. I have a ok ish social life even though I can tell some of my friends find  me creepy sometimes and some only are friends to use my knowledge on physics and english  I only have a few true friends.

my life has hit some more bumps then autism. 4 months ago I was convinced to join in PE at school for one time in my 15 years of existence  of course I had to go and shatter  knee. I pulled the top of my tibia off . Meaning I had to be in hospital for 2 weeks and had surgery and it's been 4 months so far and still on crutches and have a metal brace on it. Which has thrown me right off sceduele which for me is hell. sheldon cooper rom big bang theory might aswell be a copy of me. I have household agreements and toilet schedules and dinner timetables and my day at school and afterschool  timetabled and having this injury has thrown me off all of this which is not helping my stress levels whatsoever. 

so ye, autism is a good thing and a right pain in the ass. 

If there is anyone obssesed with planes as much as me please contact and if you have anything in common feel free to write to me