Hi all,
I am mum to a 13 year old boy with Aspergers. He was only diagnosed in July but I always knew and eventualy CAMHS finally agreed that we were looking at an autistic spectrum condition.
Things started to really get difficult when my son started secondary school and the hormones kicked in. The last two years have been tough. We've had self harm, school refusal etc. We moved him from his first mainstream secondary school (after very poor attendance and a lack of understanding from the school) to his current mainstream secondary school in September. Since January he's had more self harm, two failed suicide attempts is obsessed with anything dark like murders and psychopaths and claims that he too is hearing voices telling him to commit murders, thatthese voices have told him that to successfully kill himself he needs to first kill someone else!! Apparently these voices have told him he should kill me, my husband and daughter but he said he owes us because we take care of him. Last week he was excluded for a period of time because he took a plastic bag into school and text me to say he was going to use it to suffoctate someone in the toilets. I couldn't get hold of his psychiatrist or his psychologist at camhs and their duty worker was out, so I took him to A&E, where we spent the afternoon waiting for the CAMHS duty worker. She spoke with my son's psychiatrist who we see weekly and they are still claiming that despite my fear and concerns that they do not believe it is psychosis and that it is high high levels of anxiety manifesting itself an a different way and he has a unhealthy interest in all things dark so likes the idea of being that sort of person!!!!
I just don't know what to do anymore! He is taking Fluoxetine and Respiridone for his ASC and seeing CAMHS weekly. He is on a very reduced timetable at school but despite him claiming he can cope he clearly can't. Social services assessed us after his suicide attempts at the beginning of this year and we do not meet their criteria!! My son's needs are apparently being met best by CAMHS and my husband and I although dealing with a very difficult situation are being proactive and doing everything we can!!!! But I am falling apart! I am frightened of my own child; either there is psychosis there or he is using his knowledge and manipulative powers to control me, his family and everyone else and to be honest I don't know either way how I or us as a family can carry on! I used to childmind and I loved my job it was so much more that a job to me! I gave up my business to care for him.I have tried everything I can to get my son the right help and its just not there.
Has anyone been through anything similar or can offer any advise - I don't know how to carry on without losing the plot, I'm crying out for help.....