I wish i could be nice

That sounds like the strangest thing to say! But its true!

I'm not not nice. But other people (some people, not all) just have this natural automatic way of being able to do something for you out of the kindness of their heart and expect nothing in return. And it makes me feel awful and uncomfortable and like a bad person because I never ever seem to have anything to offer in return :( 

I just wish I could be nice like that too. Have the spare change to buy someone a pastry, or have a spare item laying around doing nothing that someone else desperately needs, or drive so I could offer a friend a lift. I have none of that :/

And I feel like a bad person because all I do is take, but have nothing to give.

  • Try not to feel bad. The fact that you've thought about it proves that you're not a bad person. The idea of doing something nice for someone might come to you later when it's too late, yes? Happens to me a lot, and if I miss an opportunity and I see that person again I tell them that I thought about it later and check that they are ok. Just because you have an afterthought doesn't mean that you're not thoughtful!