Obsession with people

My obsessions have always been people focused. From memorising the food people ate, being fixated at the sight of girl's hair, dolls, and then an all consuming interest in the actress Kate Winslet and child development.

From my teen years, and even to some extent in my childhood, I have a lived a vicarious existence where I live through other people and have no self-concept of my own. I sometimes fall in love with certain individuals and want to emulate them, to dress like them, and to do the same things as them. I don't usually share these obsessions with others for fear that they will misinterpret my obsession, but I understand boundaries and would never stalk the person - although I will obsessively research them and try and find out about them.

Does anyone else have people based obsessions? The Asperger stereotype emphasises an obsession with gadgets or objects, but my obsessions have always been people based, or about human systems like the body.

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  • Yes definitely. One thing people find it hard to understand with me is when I listen to songs, I don't really make sense of the lyrics, but I listen to it more as a melody, as a whole thing. While this happens, random people can come into my head. For example, the lyrics could be talking about death or something and I won't actually take that in and I will at the same time think of numerous people throughout the song. So i could be thinking of David Beckham for example during a song about death or soap, or food, anything random really, but the people i think of help me make sense of the song strangely. I have an obession of people like David Beckham, Dwayne Johnson and Daniel Craig, and I like to model myself on them. I like to know great detail about them etc. I would say a lot of autistic people probably experience that about people or objects :) and i love it!

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  • Yes definitely. One thing people find it hard to understand with me is when I listen to songs, I don't really make sense of the lyrics, but I listen to it more as a melody, as a whole thing. While this happens, random people can come into my head. For example, the lyrics could be talking about death or something and I won't actually take that in and I will at the same time think of numerous people throughout the song. So i could be thinking of David Beckham for example during a song about death or soap, or food, anything random really, but the people i think of help me make sense of the song strangely. I have an obession of people like David Beckham, Dwayne Johnson and Daniel Craig, and I like to model myself on them. I like to know great detail about them etc. I would say a lot of autistic people probably experience that about people or objects :) and i love it!

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