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Were you good at numbers or good at abstract and theoretical use of numbers? A lot of people on the spectrum choose mathematics because they think they are good with numbers, and then find mathematics is totally alien.
Your issue with reading them suggests that you keep having to look further back and further back to find the concept you seem to need to carry out the concept you were trying in the first place (if that makes sense). It is one of those subjects where you always need to have picked up on earlier material.
The fact you feel you need to copy them out, suggests you are not able to go further than repetition, and take the concepts further on your own. That suggests numbers were more your thing than maths theory.
Concentration is also tricky with such subject matter. You can end up staring at the same page for hours, without being able to move on.
You need to think back to why you feel the need to study mathematics. Is it because you've been told you are not a real scientist without it? Or have you got the idea that you like working with numbers, so mathematics is the obvious subject to study, rather than arithmetic or accountancy. Some universities have applied mathematics courses which are still theoretical but direct the theory at real world problems like engineering.
Have you considered studying any other subjects? Engineering involves mathematics, but isn't all mathematics. But lots of subjects provide opportunities to wotrk with numbers as part of the course.... whether that's statisics (another evil), applied mathematics, or quantitative - retail, valuation, estate management, etc.
It is very common for people on the spectrum to choose mathematics, especially pure mathematics, and come unstuck, usually in second year. If the right advice was around more people on the spectrum could be spared trying to do the wrong degree.
I wish I could convince NAS to be more careful about recommending Mathematics or Computing to people with an aptitude for numbers or computer games, without really understanding that the link isn't that reliable. The number of people let down by such pooor advice is tragic.
Were you good at numbers or good at abstract and theoretical use of numbers? A lot of people on the spectrum choose mathematics because they think they are good with numbers, and then find mathematics is totally alien.
Your issue with reading them suggests that you keep having to look further back and further back to find the concept you seem to need to carry out the concept you were trying in the first place (if that makes sense). It is one of those subjects where you always need to have picked up on earlier material.
The fact you feel you need to copy them out, suggests you are not able to go further than repetition, and take the concepts further on your own. That suggests numbers were more your thing than maths theory.
Concentration is also tricky with such subject matter. You can end up staring at the same page for hours, without being able to move on.
You need to think back to why you feel the need to study mathematics. Is it because you've been told you are not a real scientist without it? Or have you got the idea that you like working with numbers, so mathematics is the obvious subject to study, rather than arithmetic or accountancy. Some universities have applied mathematics courses which are still theoretical but direct the theory at real world problems like engineering.
Have you considered studying any other subjects? Engineering involves mathematics, but isn't all mathematics. But lots of subjects provide opportunities to wotrk with numbers as part of the course.... whether that's statisics (another evil), applied mathematics, or quantitative - retail, valuation, estate management, etc.
It is very common for people on the spectrum to choose mathematics, especially pure mathematics, and come unstuck, usually in second year. If the right advice was around more people on the spectrum could be spared trying to do the wrong degree.
I wish I could convince NAS to be more careful about recommending Mathematics or Computing to people with an aptitude for numbers or computer games, without really understanding that the link isn't that reliable. The number of people let down by such pooor advice is tragic.
