It won't be fair on her.
I'm too messed up. There was this one woman that was interested. A 6' Portuguese beauty at work. A bomb shell. She was in a bad relationship with a guy that worked for Sky News. He was coming to her flat and using her and ignoring her messages unless he wanted sex. At the same time, she was hitting on me. She was ignoring me for weeks and said the only reason I'm ignoring you is because i like you, but kept having sex with this guy. It was bad. As a work colleague, I was friendly. He wasn't using condoms as he couldn't have kids. I decorated her room in her flat for her so she could feel at home. She was crying because the flat she was renting was in dire state. It was all she could afford. I would have done it if she was ugly. She was a friend at work. She was learning English. He texted and ask her if I was anything to worry about. She said i was just a work colleage.
I asked her if she wanted to go to the cinema, or the farmers market etc. I wanted to take her to Borough Market as a friend so we can taste all the food and she was only interested if there was a pub. She said no. I wanted to take her away from her depression for a day. She didn't want his friends to see her with me so she refused to go to local places. She acually admitted that. She was only sleeping with the Sky News guy to bank. He asked her if she can go to his work place at Sky News to show her off to his colleages, but she refused. She's that beautiful. We went to buy fried chicken and all the guys there were staring at her.
She phoned me and asked if I can meet up with her before work to go for a coffee in a Pret. She started crying her eyes out about this guy. She asked me if I could take her to the airport so she could visit Portugal. She was on her own. I took her there. I tried to take her luggage, but she went off at me and said she could take it herself. I was only being a gentleman. I really didn't get her. At work, we went for a smoke at lunch break and she kissed me on the cheek. I didn't react as she was still having sex with this guy.
She asked if I could take her out for a drink. I agreed and she told him. He got jealous and took her out instead. She said he kissed her in the High Street and she really liked it. She asked to go out with me just to make him jealous.
One time she asked if we can go to the park together. I went on a Sunday and she said 'he walks his dog here'. She wanted to make him jealous. They had a massive falling out and she went full gypsy on him. I felt sorry for her. She was my work friend. We went to Sainsbury's on our lunch break and as I wasmscanning our items she said I needed a gf.
She texted me and talked about her problems and then said she was glad she had found me. To be honest, I wasn't interested in having sex with her at all. She said, "This is my first English BF". If people want to sleep around then fine. I find it gross. Sex is something I don't share with other males. STD city.
This one time, she asked me to go to her flat to give her films to watch on her laptop as I kept going on about The Walking Dead and Breaking Bad etc. I gave her a USB stick before and she actually watched it and gave feedback. She loved it! I just wanted to get her out of her crushing depression.
I was looking after her as she was in a bad place. She came on to me in her kitchen and I politley rejected her. "If you want to have sex, then make the first move" That was bad. She was talking about him laying on her bed beforehand and I was really turned off. "Guys only want me for my body". On the way to her flat, a couple walk past and she mentioned how ugly the girl's nose was. So full of herself. She had a very low IQ. After the rejection, she turned on me at work and I had to leave the job.
Maybe I was wrong and she was reaching out to me? Was I on my imaginary high horse?
She should have kept her legs closed if she wanted anything to happen between us. I think she knew I was autistic.
I passed her in the High Street and she blanked me. I'm not surprised.
I hope shes ok.
What a beauty!
This was quite a while ago, but I'm happy to be alone. No drama.
My brain isn't working properly so I stay away from relationships. I got a severe head trauma when I was young so I just stay on my own. That's how I deal with my disabilites.
I've told my GP, but I don't think he took it seriously. No one knows about it but you.
Now my body is shutting down. Hopefully I can go to sleep soon. I'm done now guys. I'm ready to sleep.
