Ramblings of a probably autistic woman

Hi all, I have created a few posts on here regarding my incoming autism assessment/ autistic traits. It’s too hot to do anything else so I have just done ALL the tests on the Embrace Autism site. The ones I find particularly interesting are the Aspie quiz and the Monotropism test. The reason they interest me is because we are all only inside our own heads, we have no experience of what it is like to be someone else. I just find it remarkable that I am very monotropic (I focus exclusively on one thing very deeply, I hate to be disrupted and if I am disrupted it upsets me greatly). In the Aspie quiz you get this little round graph showing your traits as either Neurotypical or neurodivergent. I don’t know how I got this far without someone suggesting I am not NT. 

So I have my assessment finale in exactly 2 weeks, in 2 weeks time I will know for sure what is going on. I have filled in so many questionnaires and long answer questions, I’m pretty sure the assessor will know before they meet me. 
has anyone else felt this anxious about their assessment? I spend a good bit of time thinking about it and feel quite the expert on the subject of autism quizzes available online, as well as autistic behaviours and traits in late identified women. 

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  • I was worried I would get a positive result, and I was worried I would get a negative result, for different reasons.

    I wanted to know and was scared when it came close.

    I thought of nothing else for about 6 weeks.

    I convinced myself they would say no, so as not to be disappointed. I thought I had enough traits and history, but was worried about how strictly the formal criteria would be applied. I needn't have worried.

  • Yes I have been thinking about both possible outcomes of this. I am in no way concerned if I am autistic but if they say I am not, then whoah, what is going on?! 

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