Feeling alone, confused and frightened
Feeling alone, confused and frightened
I've asked the moderators to see if they can do something about befriending. I expect thay will be in touch and ask you some questions.
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Yes, I'm not sure what that will entail but I want to try to do something to help myself. slow gentle steps in the right direction to making mthrough enjoyable instead of just adequate.
I think that we aspies do make good friends! Part of the condition is a profound inability to tell lies and deceive so i think that's a benefit of having it. It sometimes gets us into trouble as we also have difficulty not telling people something that they don't want to hear!
I see that NAS operate a befriending system. Would you like them to contact you via email to see if this is something that is available in your area? I don't have any experience of this myself but it looked as though you might really benefit from it.
Yes, ideally I would like to meet people who could not only help me but also someone I could consider a friend. Inside, I think I am a nice person who would make a good friend. I dream of having a friend who would come to visit me and i could make cake and tea and we could do fun things together like playing scrabble or making cards or something.
I think the advocate idea from Crystal sounds like a good idea. Do you know how that works?
I think you sound as though you need to talk to your gp. The advocate can really help to make that work better for you.
It is possible that the drugs are not helping. The gp may be able to find something better but you really need to speak to him or her to work this out.
longer term, you might think about perhaps trying to meet with some other people like you. Would you like to do that?
Sorry-no. I don't make calls or answer the phone, I just use texts and email, letters in the post. I'm not good with strangers either and after being allocated a care coordinator she left after 4 weeks and I got allocated another lady, she stopped coming to see me after 6 weeks - i think she gave up waiting for me to get comfortable with her even though I started to make eye contact and talking to her. I don't know why she no longer wanted to help me, I texted her 4 times, she ignored them so I can only guess, which I am never very good at.
Right now I only have the wandering cat to talk to. I haven't been to work since my hospital visit last year. I'm on all sorts of drugs and don't know if they are even helping me. i don't think I need to be on antipsychotics but my GP just keeps on re-prescribing them since the hospital issued tands but I've been out now 6 months! I'm too frightened to speak to the Gp to ask to come off them.
Firstly i would like to welcome you to the community. There is a great deal of understanding here of the problems you face. A lot of us have similar problems to yours and i hope you can learn to use your diagnosis to explain and understand your differences. If you can understand the differences then you can learn to do something about them.
Have you discussed your problems with anyone? Would it help if you could talk to someone about it? You can ask any question you like here and we will try to help.
Having this autism "illness" , not feeling like I fit in, in this world, so many things confuse or frighten me, I don't understand so many things, people don't understand me, I can't explain myself and I don't have any friends because some ripple frighten me and others think I'm weird. I talk to a neighbouring cat when he comes over to visit me.
