Living in a Coma

I’ve been thinking a lot over Christmas about different things specifically nature and how autism might fit into that. Also the roles of autism and a new kind of autism or how it is presented to us.

I’ve read some things about how it may have been something which gave some of our ancestors heightened awareness and abilities, perhaps to protect or to see danger coming a long way off. This may have played a more obvious role, I still believe there are persistent and insidious threats on this planet whereby the senses protect us from group threats and masked dangers.

Neurotypicals created a world which worked for them, then preconditioned ever round to believe that this generally was the only way things could be done. But really if we look at history it’s a repeat of facism, slavery and embedded misogyny.

I don’t know if ASD people or their abilities had been enslaved previously, my life and the way I feel is that others don’t really see an issue with undermining or belittling me. I’ve realised that times I was seriously unwell or mentally unwell were when my environment was overly influenced by the wrong people or I spent too long listening to the them. Not because I was actually unwell.

I often feel that the world has had its potential limited in order to satisfy people who need it to work a certain way to meet their status quo. On a micro level at work or in the news what’s been happening. 

We don’t generally tend to think of ourselves as animals or nature evolving as others animals and nature do.  But natures success  thrives on its own diversity, which has been proven repeatedly to create extinction for normality or things which take advantage of environments for too long. 

Parents
  • Life is a competition. Plants, animals, people, compete for space, water, food, resources, for survival and to reproduce.

    Humans are the same. It may be dressed up a bit with some rules to stop people clubbing each other over the head, but you are competing for somewhere to live, for money to get resources, for partners, to keep things going.

    There is no mystery. It is too complicated to be completely controlled. Nobody is really driving it.

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  • Life is a competition. Plants, animals, people, compete for space, water, food, resources, for survival and to reproduce.

    Humans are the same. It may be dressed up a bit with some rules to stop people clubbing each other over the head, but you are competing for somewhere to live, for money to get resources, for partners, to keep things going.

    There is no mystery. It is too complicated to be completely controlled. Nobody is really driving it.

Children
  • Yes. It is competitive. But the extent it has been taken to now is one where the competition is exclusive and limited only to competitors, I don’t feel people are the same or even accepted because my experience is that there are many people who do not want us to live and go to lengths to prevent our progress. I see a completion  as a controlled contest, this is everywhere not at work minding our own business we are threatened and under attack. 

    Without diversity in nature we would all be dead, we wouldn’t see any other way of doing things. I try and think of where art would be now if there was no Pablo Picasso. NTs jump on the wagon when they see something advantageous to them, they then exclude and eject. So it’s not this kind of push pull. 

    I feel like I am relied apon when they Want something then discarded, so I am used. That is how society makes me feel. Because I will never be competing on the same level because they are locking us out.