Misunderstandings are very distressing to me. It's bad if I'm the one who has misunderstood someone else, but the most traumatic for me is when I'm the one being misunderstood because I don't know how to deal with it or correct it, and any attempt to do so usually makes the situation worse. There are so many instances I can recall, stuff like that stays with me, and unfortunately at the time I didn't have a clue that I was autistic so I was just seen as crazy or a problem.
I wonder if stuff stays with you because it's unresolved and often seems to come out of nowhere? I've had a few situations like that, it's like others have constructed this narrative around me and have tried to force me into it and then I go and act out of "character" and break the narrative. Thats when everyone turns on me and everything goes to hell, I don't know what I'm supposed to have done, or not done and nobody can/will tell me and there seems nothing I can do but curl up in a ball and lick my wounds. I don't think these wounds ever properly heal because there's no closure, because you never know the cause.
I wonder if stuff stays with you because it's unresolved and often seems to come out of nowhere? I've had a few situations like that, it's like others have constructed this narrative around me and have tried to force me into it and then I go and act out of "character" and break the narrative. Thats when everyone turns on me and everything goes to hell, I don't know what I'm supposed to have done, or not done and nobody can/will tell me and there seems nothing I can do but curl up in a ball and lick my wounds. I don't think these wounds ever properly heal because there's no closure, because you never know the cause.
