Polytheism,

I'll be honest and I hope I don't offend anyone with this statement but I find religion full stop strange. Absolutely each to their own and I respect what other people believe. But I don't understand it. I don't find polytheism any stranger than montheism. I just do not believe that any gods actually exist and I find worshipping an invisible being an odd concept. I think this is part of my autism. I'm very black and white and very logical and I need there to be some sort of evidence for what I believe. And I don't see any evidence for god's existing, if there was, surely we'd only have one religion.

I guess that to me the divine isn't invisable, in the sky or any place inaccessable, to me they're everywhere, seen out of the corner of the eye and heard as a wise and often humerous inner voice, but definatley distinct from me and my thoughts. It's hard to explain, but to me the liminal and the numinous are real, almost everyday and normal, if sometimes a little strange. The Gods and Goddesses just are, to me, not accepting thier existance is like saying you don't believe in tree's or skyscrappers, to me they're definatley things I can stub my toes on and get tripped up by, I mean, only a God would come up with me falling down a rabbit hole whilst thinking about Lewis Carroll!

I guess that to me the divine isn't invisable, in the sky or any place inaccessable, to me they're everywhere, seen out of the corner of the eye and heard as a wise and often humerous inner voice, but definatley distinct from me and my thoughts. It's hard to explain, but to me the liminal and the numinous are real, almost everyday and normal, if sometimes a little strange. The Gods and Goddesses just are, to me, not accepting thier existance is like saying you don't believe in tree's or skyscrappers, to me they're definatley things I can stub my toes on and get tripped up by, I mean, only a God would come up with me falling down a rabbit hole whilst thinking about Lewis Carroll!

It's a way of thinking I'm never going to understand but I try very hard to respect others views.

I struggle to believe that we can live in such a difficult world with so much war and conflict, hate and sadness, cruel illnesses (I could go on) and there be this higher being that supposedly loves us all. I don't really understand what God does and why he or she or they would want (or let) people to suffer, especially those that are good people and try to live a good, honest life.

I firmly believe in science and I include psychology within that. 

But it is interesting that it is all very real to you.