What music are you listening to?

I’m feeling intensely sad tonight, I rarely cry but very am tonight. My home which kept me safe, afloat through the pandemic and which I made a perfect beauty of books and cats and collectibles and love, it has nearly gone, theres just brushes and dust, and memories left of this my mum’s gift. The keys go Monday morning, its what  I want, my new life, but the grief is breaking over me. 

So its a sad songs night, first up was  Sody’s Charlotte

now Amy McDonald’s Pride and 4th of July

this home has seen all that I am, what I was, and is letting fly away to my future 

Now - The Mission, Like a Child Again ( 1993 re mix )

Then - Amelia.  I believed this alone counted, not what happened to me. But just one particular psychiatrist explained, opened my own pandora of god’s pre-run of hell !

So check out P,NK ‘s explicit v video %%%%. PERFECT

I summarises parts of my journey, the fakely perfect end though …. NOT

Now My Chemical Romance - Welcome to the Black Parade, especially to 1 min 45 secs

this sing, similarly to the Greenday anthems, both turns me inside out witn its counterpoint and hook abd turn. I sense these on multiple levels, its like theres extra dimensions in my Im accessing. 

In Via in Manchester not too long ago, I held them in awe on the dance floor “what are you on they asked”, just music, lights, movement. 

and in the psych ward as I dance to cope Im accused by the psychiatrist (not of ethnic nor identityfying group (religion again)) of being hypo. 

But one there, a gift, saw my gift! Forced the psych’s hand, and ran the quick screening for autism. 90% certain. And as there as result of a very serious overdose I was assesed inside one month! 

If they could have made me sign an NDA they have. Frankly the psych was too dim to think of it 

Now My Chemical Romance - Welcome to the Black Parade, especially to 1 min 45 secs

this sing, similarly to the Greenday anthems, both turns me inside out witn its counterpoint and hook abd turn. I sense these on multiple levels, its like theres extra dimensions in my Im accessing. 

In Via in Manchester not too long ago, I held them in awe on the dance floor “what are you on they asked”, just music, lights, movement. 

and in the psych ward as I dance to cope Im accused by the psychiatrist (not of ethnic nor identityfying group (religion again)) of being hypo. 

But one there, a gift, saw my gift! Forced the psych’s hand, and ran the quick screening for autism. 90% certain. And as there as result of a very serious overdose I was assesed inside one month! 

If they could have made me sign an NDA they have. Frankly the psych was too dim to think of it 

So check out P,NK ‘s explicit v video %%%%. PERFECT

I summarises parts of my journey, the fakely perfect end though …. NOT