Hi, my name is Leah and this isn’t really a vent—I guess I’m just looking for advice, because I don’t know how to deal with everything I’m feeling right now.
About three years ago, my parents found out I’m autistic and have ADHD. They try, but they don’t really understand what that means or how to help me, especially when I’m overwhelmed or having a meltdown. It’s hard for them, but it’s also hard for me, because I often feel like I’m going through it alone.
Around the same time, my parents separated. They said it was mutual—that they didn’t love each other anymore—but it was really hard for me to accept. I hate change, and everything suddenly felt different. I had quite a few meltdowns, mostly because I missed my dad and wanted things to go back to the way they were. Over time, I adjusted a little, but it’s something I’ve carried with me.
Recently, my dad told me he’s getting married. He’s been seeing someone for a while, and he invited me to lunch to tell me the news. I didn’t know how to react in the moment, but ever since then, it’s been weighing on me. I’ve been bottling up a lot of emotions—I don’t even know exactly how I feel. I’m not sure if I’m sad, confused, scared of more change, or maybe all of those things at once.
I guess I just needed to let it out somewhere. Thank you for reading and for listening—it means more than I can explain.