The vote up/vote down option

Unfortunately the vote up and down option gives an all too clear indication of how well or not your contributions are valued, and from that how well you are regarded as a participant here.For all people here try to reassure me, there is solid proof that I'm not regarded very well here.  That's not exclusive to here. Historically I've never been truthfully regarded as a good forum participant - when it comes too over 95% of the online forums I've been a member of. It's just that I do comparatively less poorly online than I do IRL.

Unfortunately the vote up and down option gives an all too clear indication of how well or not your contributions are valued, and from that how well you are regarded as a participant here.For all people here try to reassure me, there is solid proof that I'm not regarded very well here.  That's not exclusive to here. Historically I've never been truthfully regarded as a good forum participant - when it comes too over 95% of the online forums I've been a member of. It's just that I do comparatively less poorly online than I do IRL.

I see this forum and its members as a group in some sort of classroom or hall, I actually imagine everyone here how they could look like, the tone of everyone’s voice etc. and when I come here I’m just happy to see, that all these people from this group, I got used to it, are still sticking around here. And it means, that I’m also happy to see you here, even if I don’t express it. Which I’m actually doing now writing this post. There are some users who I think of, and miss them here, but I also understand that it’s everyone’s decision if and how long they want or can stay here etc. 

I think you’re struggling with awfully low self-esteem and even though there is no rational reason for that, it’s still a valid feeling. There are many reasons for autistic people to feel inferior and insecure even though they shouldn’t. I’m constantly thinking about if people actually like me or if they just feel sorry for me or don’t dare to tell me their opinions on me, so I know that nothing I’ll write will persuade you to believe all those voices telling you that you are in fact of great value for this forum. 
But you have to keep the rational part of your mind in check while reasoning. Many here just explained the different ways they use the up- and downvotes. The next time you feel bad about not seeing any upvotes under a post, you have to make sure that at least the rational part of you reminds the bad thoughts of those explanations.