I'm 16 years old and have had some trouble with depression and anxiety recently. I don't know if i think im autistic to have something to kind of blame my problems on or if i genuienly have it. I'm really really scared to ask my parents to get a diagnosis so i'm asking this here before i act on anything. My brother has diagnosed adhd and i've heard that if my sibling is neurodivergent theres higher chance for me to be.
I know that the only way to know for sure if i'm autistic or not is to get a diagnosis but i want more opinions on this before i do anything.
I somehow ended up on autism tiktok (not the best source of information i know) and i found myself relating to most of the autistic traits.
Some traits i relate most to is struggling with eye contact, being very sensitive to loud or obnoxious sounds aswell as getting overwhelmed very easily when there are multiple sounds. I find some types of clothes like jeans extremely uncomfortable and have refused to wear them ever since i was a child. I am very introverted and hate all kinds of places with a lot of people like school or partys. I have a really hard time making friends and often and up being by myself. I feel very exausted after school, birthday parties or even just spending some time with my family. I've always hated anyone touching me like hugs or small things like someone placing their hand on my shoulder. There are maybe less then 10 food dishes i actually like and eat. I don't know if it's because of textures, smeel or i don't like the taste
As for taking things literally i dont think phrases like "break a leg" means to actually break a leg, i might have some trouble trying to understand what the phrase means tho. Looking back at my childhood i have had troubles understanding some instructions like for example when i'm cooking i am so confused to things like "add a little spice" i always worry how much is a little spice or how much is considered normal.
Some autistic traits that i don't relate to so much is repetitive behaviour, i do the same exact thing every single day but i don't get that mad or anxious when it changes, i don't like to plan things either because i don't know how i'm going to feel when the time arrives. I also think i don't have that much trouble understanding social rules, but i might have a little trouble understanding how people think and feel in conversations but to be fair i honestly don't think i have had enough conversations in recent years to say for certain.
I think i've had some hyperfixations but i don't know. Throughout some periods of my life there have been some stuff that i have been completely obsessed with. I have been so obsessed to the point where i have lost sleep and sometimes not eaten enough but because i haven't really thought that i might be autistic earlier in my life it feels wrong to think of it as a hyperfixation.
If i look back at my childhood i can see a lot of these traits but i feel like everything is very excalated right now.
I know online tests aren't really accurate in determining if you have autism or not but I have done two online tests and i have scored quite high on both.
I scored 190 on RAADS–R | Embrace Autism
I scored 38 on Autism Spectrum Quotient | Embrace Autism
Do you think i have autism? Should i build up the courage to tell my parents and try getting a diagonsis? Am i just making things up trying to have a reason for all my problems?
I might've missed some stuff but i tried my best to type everything i am thinking of right now.