Published on 12, July, 2020
I was driving through town one evening and a group of men dressed in causal clothing were obviously heading out to a bar together.
They were all ages 60+ and looked comfortable together, as if they'd been doing this for years/decades.
I said to my wife that I can't seem to justify the effort to maintain a friendship like that. Even at school I had a very limited friendship group which pretty much vanished once life started to get in the way (work, relationships etc).
My wife said "that's just the way you are" and that pretty much ended that conversation.
I don't know if it's my definition or friendship. I obviously am aware of others in my limited circle. I work and have work colleagues that I get along with but I'd never want to socially interact outside of work.(I do get invited out but I decline)
I have very limited interest in anyone outside my own household and that includes immediate family.
It does feel a little isolating at times I suppose.
Anyway forgive the ramble
After my last disastrous attempt at socialising in 2018,typically so, I decided to give up on trying to socialise more. For whatever reason the vast majority of people I've interacted with haven't liked me. I have no desire to subject myself to more cruel hurt and rejection. As it is with my mobility difficulties I couldn't get out to socialise even if I wanted to. I do better online than F2F with other people. FB=350+ 'friends' . X= 869 followers. The more intelligent people are the less they're likely to reject me for being 'weird'.