Published on 12, July, 2020
Lately I've felt like I don't fit. Like I don't struggle enough to be considered autistic. I do struggle, of course. I probably struggle more than neurotypicals do. And I know that being autistic isn't only about struggling. But sometimes it feels like I am faking it. Like it's just another mask that I put on. These sentences are so hard to write. It's like trying to catch a specific snowflake in the blizzard that is my brain. So I'll just stop here. Have you ever felt this way?
Mee too
Im 49 and as Sally said gone through mainstream school, work, friends and everything else in between. My son is autistic and I have so many similarities to him as well as I understand him like no one else can. Yes I do feel fake sometimes depending on my mental state and even feel sometimes like I shouldn’t be on here due to not being diagnosed, I do seem to fit here though and am extremely comfortable being part of this community…. It’s been such a positive thing for me to be here. I can also feel alone even though I’m surrounded by people and loved ones.
Yes I also had same thoughts like what I’m doing here, since I’m not diagnosed… but my various struggles especially now in new job just remind me that I’m on the spectrum. I feel like I fit here and this is the only social media I really like and enjoy. And it helps me emotionally a lot.