Since my autistic diagnosis, the one thing I get confused about is the topic of special interests. When I've read on various platforms that they can be very specific and narrow. But for me I have lots of interests and I get stressed when I can't do them all due to time etc. I have a dolls house which is a project for me as I'm obsessed with tiny things. I love tarot, I love crystals from a geological point of view. I love reading specific genre books (Skulduggery Pleasant books). And I have a passion for rock/metal music and playing my bass guitar. I love simulation video games and board games.
Now this is why I could scream, I will obsess over one thing for weeks, then suddenly I go to my other interest for weeks, then another etc. It's prompted people to say I have "fads" and that bothers me because actually I never stop liking an interest, I just come back to it at a later stage, sometimes months later. But with every interest I have I become fixated on everything about it. My bass guitar alongside my rock/metal music has been the only exception where I live and breathe that every single day.
But then there's that occasion where I want to do all my interests all at once and because I can't I just get upset and do mine of them out of sheer frustration that I argue with myself over which one to do.
Does anybody else experience this? I do genuinely struggle with this to the point I've almost wished that I could like only one thing.
